You know everything is inshallah
Everything is gods will
Even if you dont even agree with it
Cause there's gonna be things
Where you look back at
That you prayed for that you got now
You get me?
Yeah

I tap into my deepest pain
To keep me sane
The reaper hangs
Like freezing rain
I'm seeing things
Biting my fingers
Like they teething rings
One verse equal to a ki of cain
God is great speak his name
Beefing with heathens
Aint no reason I'ma be arraigned
Millimeters bang
Leaking brains auf wiedersehen
All the wounds that we sustained
Made us uniquely brave
Every level the rules change
Can you complete the game
Racist policies detain
And bodies being drained
My girl seeing me through this
Last thing that bothers me is paying
I need to stop delaying
She gotta see a ring
Because I owe her my life
Honesty and name
Inshallah

God forgive me
Lost my mommy in 19
And a baby in 2020
Question the plan
Like what does he want from me
Growing sick of quoting scriptures
Going against my own religion
Showing symptoms
No conviction
Show me wisdom
I know I'm slipping
First time in my life
I'm scared of fasting
Gotta confront my terrible actions
Air mattress to Paris fashion
Retail therapy cover madness
Can't imagine
All the things I use to be distracted
I'm supposed to be growing
But emotionally broken
So I'm caught in systems
Of narcissism
Missing altruism
My conscience caught in prison
Of my faults and schisms
Couldn't believe my eyes
When I walk in the room oh
I felt the calmest of wounds ugh
Allah could you
I mean damn
Why you put my momma on tubes
The very next year you killed my daughter in a womb
Still I prayed Salah
Though I I couldn't talk and I couldn't walk
The time I just watched it move
They protesting with no change ugh
Shoot rubber bullets with no aim nah
You don't know pain
My dad don't know blame
He asked me why I don't call
I don't know Greg
Fuck I don't know Greg
Inshallah

You know the first thing I wanted to do when I found out I was gonna be a father
Was talk to my mom
And I hadn't spoke to my mom for almost two years before she died
And so like that let me know how damaged I was and how much you know I needed to heal
And it wasn't until I lost my baby did I realise how much I wanted to be a dad
Like I knew I was excited but it wasn't until I lost the opportunity
Did it really hit me
And I remember when I phoned my father and I was telling him like what was happening
This nigga was like I'm glad I'm not in your shoes
So when I say I don't know why I don't phone him
Because I already know everything he's gonna say before hand
So I don't even bother with the phone conversation you get me
But everything is Inshallah man
I'm just trying to move trying to heal
And I dont I don't pretend to overstand all the plans but sometimes man it can't be that